This picture was taken this fall, 20 lbs lighter than I currently am. So imagine what that thing looks like now.

I really thought that almost 50 lbs I lost in 2008 would stay off because 140 lbs felt good.  Apparently, it doesn’t stay off  if you take a year off from exercising and become a bad vegetarian.

I just have to remember how good it felt to be 140 lbs. It felt good. I felt healthy and looked healthy. I just have to remind myself everyday!

It just seems like I can’t get motivated until I’ve really hit rock bottom. You would have thought I could have convinced myself to get back on track at 150, 160, 170….but I didn’t. I still didn’t feel disgusting** yet.

**Disgusting to me is when my thighs rub together when I walk, when I can’t lay down without my double/triple chin gagging me, it’s hard to tie my shoes because of the impossible muffin top, etc.

I’m back on track as of the end of April. Once I go into something full force, I can’t stop. It’s like an obsession. I just need to get obsessed about running again. Like this –>>>

I could blame it on my blog but let’s face it, it is just another excuse. I have plenty of excuses not to exercise but none of them are good ones.